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Twilight has been on for more than 3 weeks already but it was just yesterday that i finally came in the theater house and watched. I remember the first time it was shown, my friends, officemates and even friendster friends are talking nothing but the movie itself. I heard fascinating and mesmerizing reactions/feedback from them. On the other side, I heard not so satisfied comments.

At that time, I have to admit. I did not have the urge to really go and watch it. My friends insisted that I’d most likely love it coz a sweet, inspiring love story…duh! hopeless romantic..hehe Though, it caught my attention, I still felt lazy going to the cinema. Well, I was close last week but I guess buying presents for loved ones are more important than satisfying my curiosity(if i have enough) about Twilight.

Yesterday, I and Cathy met. We actually did not agree ahead of time that we will be seeing each other. I got bored at home and decided to give her a call. I dont know why but I think it was because she asked my sun number but didn’t bother to call me while i waited patiently. Anyway, We met. Good thing she didnt have the lines,

“Marge, it’s always a wrong time whenever you call and invite me.” OR

“Marge, Im looking out for our store”

hehe peace Cathy…:) But I just cant figure out why she’s way toooo late when she just lives a few blocks away from Gateway Mall. And me? I came all the way from Makati where I already rode a jeepney and subway. She literally starved me to death. I even texted her that I might eat up the leaves around me in the garden(the center of Gateway). At least she finally showed up before I passed out. We had lunch and then head off for reservations and the tickets. We strolled for a while and finally sat down and watched.

Hmmm…Twilight is nice. At first I didnt like it. It’s like a movie for the pale. hehe Seriously, I had fun watching it. It’s touching. Sweet I like it really. It reminded me Gone With the Wind. The lines are wow.

“You’re like my personal brand of herione.”

shoot.

Generally, it was fine. Yes, I will come to watch it again. I also plan to read the book coz it’s better there. I think I’d also find it more interesting in the book. Anyway, I had fun really. But I dont think I love it too much to sign up for Fan clubs for Edward Cullen…hehe

It’s been a while since i last saw my nephew. Like 4 months? It’s not usual for me especially that im so attached to him to the point of claiming him to be my baby. hehe why not? we look alike..hehe

Kidding aside, I do miss my nephew, Andrew. I love him so much. He is one of my weaknesses. For those 4 months I havent seen him was difficult for me. I wanted to see him and check on him. But there’s a big part of me to say no and just dread the moment of being with him. I dont know if people can understand but whenever i see him after his dad’s death is always a struggle. I feel helpless looking at him being innocently so happy as if his growing up years without his dad guiding him will be easy. Sometimes Im dumbfounded whenever he asks me where ‘Nan’ is. (he imitates his mom when she calls his dad). Sometimes, he tells me ‘Nan’ is sleeping in Batangas(place Kuya was buried). My first reaction was to laugh at it. But when I come to think about it, it’s not funny at all. I dont like to see him without anyone to look up to. His mother, my sister-in-law, is still in pain and whenever she cries, my nephew does too. And I cant stand it.

That’s why, I decided to stop seeing him temporarily. I am also grieving even up to this moment. I haven’t visited my brother’s grave on 9/11(his bday),11/01. I stopped to go to Quezon City(where Drew lives) for a while and tried to get over the pain. Besides, I had a lot to fix in my life. Absorbing their pain isn’t the best thing to do at that time as I’m also grieving not just of Kuya’s death but also some personal stuffs. I can’t say that I have fixed myself 100% but I’m getting there. I’m way better now than before. Yes, I’m not over Kuya’s death(dont think I will ever be) but i can laugh and even joke at it. I also chose to assure my parents first before Drew not because I love him less but because my parents do not have anyone else except me. Drew can survive as he is still too young to feel the loss. My parents are living in the house where we grew up. So many memories there. When i had a vacation last year, sadness was evident. Right now, I think they are pretty much okay. I am more than okay too. I’m happy actually as I’m getting by with everything. Work is fine. Relationships with friends are fine. I have gained new true and worthy friends. I even have an instant family who welcomes me. I think I’m blessed this year in spite of everything.

So, I guess Im ready to be bankrupt again…hahaha!

I mean Im ready to be with Drew. I’ll just be counting a few hours and I’ll be reunited with him. i love him so much. He is one of the reasons why I stayed in Manila. My plans will always include him no matter what. We may not have the ideal aunt-nephew relationship (as I tend to be more strict/disciplinarian…he can get away with anything just by being sweet…well, it doesn’t work for me..hehe). He loves me but at the same time fears me. That’s good. I think that’s what my brother wants to do too if he were alive.

i was shopping all afternoon last Monday at Landamark, Glorietta and SM. I really had the best time being with myself buying presents for some loved ones and for myself too(xempre). I had the best bargains on all that i bought. haha I also dined alone at my favorite place, Pizza Hut. I’m actually not a im-gonna-die-without-pizza type but i just love the ambiance of the place. I decided to eat there while resting my feet. I just cant explain fully how i enjoyed my time looking for stuffs with no time limit. Whoa!

The Makati malls are obviously my fave place to shop, eat and hang out. It is very accessible. no doubt about it. I can reach the place within 15minutes or less. However, I always have a problem going home from Glorietta area. I just don’t know. Ive been living in Makati for more than 2 years already but I just cant seem to get the perfect and convenient way to commute. There was even one time that i walked long enough to realize Im already too close to home to even ride a jeepney.

But something amusing happened last Monday that even up to this point makes me laugh whenever i remember it. My last stop was landmark. I decided to go out and look for FX taxi there. I was thinking that since the taxi drove us there, then there maybe some taxis there ready to load passengers. So there i tried my luck. As usual I noticed a long line of passengers waiting for their turn. If im gonna be joining them, it would probably take me more or less than 30minutes to get a cab. and I dont have 30minutes. hehe So I did look for a cab, deviating from the long line. Fortunately, one empty cab stopped in the middle of the pedestrian lane and opened the door for me. Well…Im so lucky I thought. I thanked the driver for his kindness and all sort of emo thing..lol I thought he would just say thanks as that’s the normal response we receive from them. any idea? he said,

“well, if only youre not pregnant, I shouldnt have stopped and opened the door for you.”

WHAT???!!!

I asked him again just to check coz he must be joking. But he was god damn serious. He even asked me on how many months Im pregnant and all. I wanted to respond sarcastically but I just cant coz he was nice to me really. When the whole thing sink in, I just laughed with him. It was so funny. And i looked at my tummy..hmmm too much beer..haha I  guess it’s time to be very very very serious about working out. Lately, I lost weight already but it was because i was starving myself. I wasnt eating rice for quite a while already. I also dont know what happened. I used to really do a lot of things to sweat out. I think I have gone to be too lazy to even raise a finger.

What can I do now? nothing but laugh at it. Yes, im serious of getting my shape back but on the back of my mind, I shouldnt be too focused on it. It’s no biggie. I just felt the urge of writing this coz it’s kinda funny. My friends know me and my beer belly stories. It has been my struggle for years already. Up to the moment I can hear remarks like,

You’re ok now…except the belly thing..

haha! whatever. I love myself. Me and my precious.

I have 3 days off this week and as of the moment of writing, this will be my 3rd day. I never enjoyed my weekend as much as i enjoyed the one I have at the moment. Last Sunday, I went to Don Bosco (as usual) to hear mass then had my brunch and then doze off to sleep. I woke around evening, had dinner @ pizza hut. Take note: it was me,myself and i. But dont think im a loser for having no one sharing food with me. Why? I have learned to love and had discovered the beauty of eating alone. churla oi…haha Well in a way, yes. And why i wouldnt be hanging out there when i have a full view of my crush serving food for me with his his smile alone making me so full already. haha bigaon ko i know.

Anyway, too much for that. I had a wonderful evening listening to music and watching some (porn..haha joke!) tv shows i havent watched in a while.  2nd day, I had the time of my life shopping at Landmark & SM, dining at Glorietta’s Sizzlers and strolling at Greenbelt. I had a total control of my time and i didnt seem to care about anything else but look for dresses and some presents for loved ones. After that, I then went to celebrate Joy’s birthday at Bluewave. I had fun as much as they did. I had smb light but i never went drunk so no drama queens moments..whew!!! No dance floors though. God knows how im dying to party..haha But it’s okay coz I lost my voice singing my ass out and pretending to be the one singing in front. haha The best part of the night? not @ Bluewave really. It was in our rooms. We dressed up and did our make-ups as if we were attending a debut. Well, according to the celebrant, it is her debut. haha Before the night ended, we even had a semi-tour of Manila-Makati places. haha I miss doing that and I love it really. It’s been a while to go on the road on past midnight and just do nothing but be fascinated with the lights and the nightlife itself minus the traffic. wow.

3rd day…hmmm. I’m still in the middle of the day 12:06pm to be exact. I just woke up and i look a bit wasted this time. Im about to hit the shower and then go back to Glorietta. Im going back to shop a bit as i forgot to buy some important things like bubble plastic?haha  Later this evening I will be partying with my officemates. Thank God they have agreed to go out and party than go on overtime work. haha Peace Red and Robs. :)) At least we’ll be spending time not just in between work. So excited. So i guess I’ll be drinking ’til i drop then..haha It’s been a while and I have to say when one is a party animal by nature, no bars nor fists can prevent him/her to go on the wild…haha just kidding…

Ive been working my ass off so hard. People can see that. This time I deserve to party and yes, flirt..haha..just kidding. Next week, I hope our plans to head off to Bataan will come into reality. But most probably, it will..and I can’t wait.

Final. I cant go to Cebu next week. Im sorry. But you guys know how eager and excited I am to go there. I wanna see Shamay, Hailey and my ‘nice’ friends who really MADE the effort of inviting me over…haha Beckay, Michelle ewan ko sa inyo…hehe But i’ll definitely go there soon. I have to be there on Shamay church wedding. and earlier..ummm Sinulog? I’d love to. Let’s see…

Early Merry Christmas guys! tc e’ryone

but how can i do so if im talking and talking…? cant elaborate. anyway, i just wanna post nonsense here. I will have a few days off so probably i can work on this.

anyway, i have a problem here. PoTa.  it’s so hard to find presents for loved ones..why so??? i give meaningful presents coz i dont want to receive cheap ones like hankies, frames..so ew!lol sorry but you guys can relate to this i know. For those who are having a hard time figuring out what i want on xmas, just give me a bottle of lambanog, tequilla and/or red wine. im ok with that…haha no handkerchiefs or picture frames. (as if naay maghatag..haha)

and guys why so demanding lately? sBux mugs?krispy kremes? ask your boyfriends for that ok???we’re just friends..haha just kidding. im god damn sad i cant go home this xmas. i really want to see all of you and hang out just like before but i cant do so. i have to settle a lot of stuffs and fix my life first here in Manila. im not ready to go back to Davao yet. and if ever im going home, i wont post it. you know…i’ll just let you know privately. (as if..hehe)

im supposed to fly to cebu next week also but i guess it will be close to nill. havent done the reservations though i could have worked on it the other week. I was thinking of going out of town just near Manila area and i’ll just go there in Cebu in January…Sinulog right? it could be a lot more fun. I really wanted to be at the wedding and baptismal of Shamay and Hailey respectively but I’ll just catch up. Sham: I promise to be there in your church wedding next year. Thanks to Rebecca Bernales also for being SOOOO NICE to me. Im so looking forward to going there as according to her no free accomodations. THANK YOU. haha Ske’s the kindest of all as she drains my load everytime i call her. It would have been worth it if she’d promised me a party for me there. eh wala eh. adik lang.

Also, why is it that nobody wants to go to the beach on december? is it because of the rainy season? so what? we are gonna get wet when we go to the beach even on summer. What’s the big deal with rain? Afraid of the waves? duh! if it’s really your time to die you will really die regardless if you drown or youre just sleeping, you definitely die…hehe no violent reactons. i know im right…ssshh

Those are the things that are bothering me so far..haha I have some other things i would wanna share but i’d rather keep it to myself coz it’s kinda personal and in a way i have learned to value the word ‘privacy’. haha

crap.

miss you guys..in as much as i want to spend xmas with my family, HS and college friends..i just cant this time. There will still be a lot of Christmases to celebrate. This will be my first time to be alone also but i guess i can get by with this. Im happy with my work and my friends in the office. never a dull moment. always happy, funny and naughty experiences..haha

tc e’ryone!

Im back.

I”ve been posting blogs before but they were pretty much useless and no longer applicable to my life so i decided to delete my account. Anyway, im looking forward to posting more often. Writing has always been my passion. I dont know what happened for the past years. It seemed to be not so me. (or totally not me) But I’ll try to catch up. I’m still working on my multiply account as always..haha In the meantime, I’ll enjoy posting here on friendster.

I have so many things to say. Good and Bad. sensible and no sense at all. logical and illogical. realistic and dreamy, seryoso and usapang lasing..People who knows me pretty much have an idea of what I’m talking about.

love it!

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